It has been an age since I wandered in here. There has been a lot to occupy me. My best friend died. I thought I was ready and it transpired that I wasn't. I miss her like I'd miss my right arm. I went through a period of feeling completely alone in the World which upset my darling boy. He loved her too but he never really got how profoundly and deeply I needed her. Life marches relentlessly on for those left reeling behind. Wills and Kate got married. We celebrated with a street party which was utterly fab. I have my head around my job and am growing to really like it. Steve is contemplating what he is going to do in 14 months when he waves goodbye to the Army after 34 years - I never consider much beyond tomorrow.